because that was my story too.
I used to describe the way I felt as "way too big for this body, like at any moment I could just burst out of this skin."
I had this longing to "go home" without knowing where that actually was.
Sound familiar?
Sitting on my porch one day in 2016, pissed off, ashamed, and bawling my eyes out...
... Seeing my bank account at -$649
... On the leaderboard in my high ticket sales gig but somehow still "broke" as my financial baseline
... My relationship in ruin
... And my confidence at an all time low,
I knew something needed to change, and fast!
I searched far and wide for what it was going to take to create a life of thriving, without selling out my heart and soul in the process.
Even though my healing journey and spiritual practice started almost 20 years ago, of which the first 10 were spent battling addiction & homelessness (another story for another day but if you have a problem with it RUN ;)...
I became OBSESSED.
I put myself in every healing, personal development, certification, and coaching opportunity that called to me. Even at times when I was barely getting by, I always found a way.
I strategized, studied, prayed, meditated, hypnotized myself, ritualized my life, journaled and tapped my friggin face off trying to figure out how to heal the mindset traps & beliefs that were keeping me trapped in this cycle of lack and limitation.
I was filled with creative ideas but could never carry out the actions to fully bring the things I saw inside for myself to life.
I'd always get started, sink into overwhelmed, second guess, sabotage, and burn it down over and over again.
I had some success, sure.
Some huge financial wins. Developed relationships with some amazing clients that I still serve to this day.
It wasn't all bad, but it was never the FULL thing.
It was like having a small crumb of a really yummy cheesecake..
I developed a taste for it and still..
I knew there was SO MUCH MORE.
I knew I was living a shadow version of my vision, this "almost it, but not quite" version, so
So in 2019 I decided with my entire being,
ENOUGH IS E-MF-NOUGH!
Fully committed to self-liberation & self mastery, I developed my own brand of alchemy that changed my life forever,
and then finally it hit me...
There's only ONE core wound that keeps the ones who are born for magick bound to mediocrity.
And it's responsible for ALL of the struggle story.